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Who Strengthens Me

My husband I are both very spiritual people. God has always been very important to us but lately we have made a conscious effort to welcome Him into our lives in every way possible. I spoke to you in my last blog about goals and resolutions for the new year which I decided to break down into three goals for 30 days. But, one goal that will continue throughout the whole year will be my relationship with God.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! Philippians 4:13

One of my resolutions has been to wake up in the mornings to spend time talking with God and praying about my day. This helps me so much. I must admit this is my hardest goal to accomplish thus far. I am NOT a morning person! But, when I do it, I notice so much of a difference in my day. I walk into my day with a purpose to serve God. I turn away from gossip and petty annoyances with ease. I focus on the good. On my lunch break instead of reading magazines, I take a moment to read Joyce Meyer’s devotional on my phone, which inspires me and helps me through the rest of my day.
joy is portable

Nightly my husband and I are reading The Love Dare Couple’s Devotional together which sometimes gives us Bible verses to focus on and sometimes just ideas on how to strengthen our marriage through God’s love. And before we go to bed, we read our One Year Bible. It allows us to read a little each night from the old testament and new. I really can’t tell you how much this has helped our marriage and my peace of mind. I fall asleep knowing that God will take care of us. I wake up knowing the same. I have spent so many days feeling empty, wondering what my purpose was. God has filled my heart with joy. I know my purpose for life is for Him. I was selfish in the past and wanting to validate myself by accomplishing things I felt would make me feel important in this lifetime. As I look back on my life, I can see where God has been pulling me closer to Him all along.

My purpose of this blog is not to show you how great I am by doing these things but by doing these things how great I feel. I never want to offend anyone by pushing religion on you.There was a time I resisted in my heart long ago and now my heart is pouring over with joy. Not because we have so much money, not because we are so successful, not because I am always happy, but because my God has given me peace. He has given me strength. I want that for you too.

we are what we repeatatedly do

In my recent posts I talked of my new years resolutions and goals. When December came to a finish I had such high ambitions on how to tackle these goals. When January rolled around I was hit by the flu and my body has been fighting to be back to 100%. I have felt disappointed in myself that I could not accomplish my goals.It has been a task to just make it through each day at work with my energy level. Now that my body is finally healing, I of course want to get back to accomplishing my goals, but this time I know I will have to find a new approach.
I know that part of the reason I have felt so overwhelmed is being sick, but I also quickly realized that I was trying to take on too much at one time. Both my mind and my body felt tired. I see now that although I have the desire to dive head first into ALL my resolutions, I need to break them down separately.
I spent some time researching habits. How long does it take to make or break a habit? Ideas to help form new habits. Tips on keeping strong while forming a new habit. Here are the most common suggestions I found:

* commit to 30 days

* make it daily for those 30 days

* start simple

* get a buddy

* find your trigger, form a new trigger

* be imperfect

* remove temptation

* associate with role models

* visualize doing well

* write it down

* do it for yourself

* reward yourself

* get positive feedback

Now, the really hard part for me is deciding which resolution to focus on first. This is why I had previously decided to start them ALL! 😉 Each goal is individually so important to me. But, if I don’t have the energy to achieve my goals, I will not have success. So, I have decided my first focus will be on my energy level. I need to go to bed earlier, which will help me with my goal of waking up earlier. We all know getting the appropriate amount of sleep is so important to our health, yet it is neglected so easily with our busy lives. I need to eat healthier. I’m interested in losing a few pounds but my main focus is energy. I want to fuel my body. And yes, as cliché as it is, I want to focus on forming a routine at the gym. It becomes so easy to hibernate in the winter months but I always feel so much energy once I get into a routine at the gym. The next 30 days will be focused on these things. I will let you know in a month what helped me and what did not! Wish me luck!!

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Inspiration is such a powerful thing. I am inspired every day, some days more than others. I am inspired the moment I wake up by God’s words that fill my heart and my day. I am inspired by my husband’s unconditional love. It always amazes me that he will wake up and iron my pants or run to the store and get me a diet mountain dew at 7 in the morning if I am running late, no questions asked. I am inspired by patients that come in who are in pain but smile and make me smile. I am inspired by my boss who has a vision to make things better for everyone and never stops trying. I am inspired by coworkers who come to work to make a difference. I am inspired by small acts of kindness that I accidentally catch. I am inspired by my mother who never stops giving and never complains. I am inspired by my brother who has come so far so fast. I am inspired by couples of all ages who treat each other with love and respect. I am inspired by selfless love. I am inspired by expressions of creativity. I am inspired by friends who are loyal and true. I am inspired by people who are better Christians than I and help me grow.
Do you ever think about what inspires you?

Even though I try to live each day as best I can, I would like to try to think that every encounter has a purpose. I have the opportunity to inspire their life in some way just as they do in mine. Galatians 6:9 tells us Let us not lose heart in doing good. Let us not!!! Who knows what you can do with such a small gesture. Who knows who is watching you and being inspired by your actions. Who knows if your kindness,loyalty,love,forgiveness is exactly what someone needed to inspire someone else.

This is something that has been on my mind and heart and after reading a devotional today, I know I was meant to be inspired.

lamp unto my feet

A Brand New Day

right direction

I have always loved a new year because it marks a brand new beginning! There is so much possibility in the air it’s almost as if you are a kid again waiting at your bus stop! Will I make lots of friends this year? Will my teacher like me? Will I make the lead in the musical? 🙂 I wake up ready to conquer my goals and resolutions! But, in my twenty-so years…I have come to realize that this happy-go-lucky phase can be misleading. New years “fresh starts” should come with a warning label! :: will cause temporary giddiness and uncharacteristic optimism:: In all seriousness, I just know that in years past, I have become quickly discouraged at my first “mistake” and I begin to doubt myself. I begin to believe I will not make many friends this year, that my teacher will not like me, and that I will indeed not make the lead in the school musical.

My goal this year is to remain my own best friend. I hope that doesn’t sound selfish but I can be really hard on myself. I have so many expectations and if ever I lose my stepping, it’s almost as if I need a new year to get a fresh start. No more, I say!

This is the fourth day into the new year. I’ve already made plenty of mistakes. Wednesday I had a stressful day at work and came home and vented to my husband (for probably an hour). As soon as I did I remembered my resolution to not sweat the small things and felt bad. I prayed about it that night and you know what, I let it go! Thursday I was snappy to my husband in the morning when I was getting ready for work, instantly felt bad for that one. But, I told him I was sorry and I loved him and I let it go. Today, I had a big fat chocolate doughnut and I loved it! I did not feel bad about this one for a while! But, I will let it go!

This is a big step for me. I believe I can achieve these resolutions even if I make mistakes.

In His Time

In His Time

It has been a whole year since I have written and everything and nothing has changed in my life. When I began writing this blog I was in a transition period in my life from a single girl to a married woman. My first year of marriage was about discovering what it meant to be a wife and to be a part of a team. My dreams were his dreams. His dreams were my dreams. I had to learn to let go of my selfishness. I had to learn to be alone because of our schedules and still find a way for us to be in love.

My second year of marriage was more of a personal journey for me. I longed for a purpose. We had decided for Brandon to go back to school, which was so exciting! But, I felt confused on my purpose in life. Was I supposed to be an awesome insurance coordinator my whole life? Maybe I just help brighten patients all day with my positive attitude? I felt lost. I longed to go back to school myself to accomplish dreams of my own. I longed to begin a family when financially we couldn’t do so. I felt like a lab rat just stuck hitting a wall. impatience, selfishness,resentment. I felt it all. But, this journey was a journey God wanted me to take. I had lost sight on everything that mattered. I had forgotten that my husband’s dreams were my own dreams. I had forgotten that my purpose is for God. The more I turned to His words the more my heart was filled with hope. The more my anxiety and fears about our future just seemed to slip away. This past year has taught me to trust in God with all my heart. Miraculous things began to happen once I allowed God to take over.

I enter this new year with a joyful heart. I am so thankful for my blessings in my life. I want to take each day at a time with an honest grateful approach and let God lead the way!

A Dreamer

Martin Luther King Jr. is such an inspiration to dreamers all over the world. One dream that was planted inside his soul was able to take action and be celebrated in such a beautiful way today. My new year’s resolution was to not only pursue the dreams that have been festering inside of me but to continue to let them grow. God gives us these dreams for a purpose. Not to make us suffer with regret, resentment, or sadness. He wants us to prosper.

It can be scary to begin the process of pursuing a dream, but just as Martin Luther King Jr. once said “faith is taking the first step even when you don’t see the whole staircase”.

Dream Big

It’s strange to think another year has come to an end and I am already embarking on a journey of another. I do like to reflect back on the year, if not just briefly, to see just how far I have grown. 2011,I feel was a transition year for me. Ten years ago I was entering into “adulthood” but I feel it wasn’t until this year that I truly did.
My husband and I struggled a little with conflicting work schedules and spending time apart. I think that was a really hard lesson for me in the beginning when I had certain ideals of marriage and what it would be like. It was such a bittersweet and beautiful lesson that in the end taught me that love conquers all. I also went through a rough time personally where I think I felt out of place. I no longer felt I belonged with a certain “group” or friends. I had changed from wanting to go out all the time but not knowing what it was I DID want to do. This was also a wonderful journey of rediscovery of who I am and who I have become. My family has become such a big part of my life. My husband and I even chose to take a family vacation for our one year anniversary instead of taking one by ourselves. That meant the world to me that he would do that for me. That is what love is. I had some hard lessons as well this year. I believe God has been teaching me contentment and patience all year long. I have still not come to full term on this lesson. I have learned to look at the world and be thankful for what I have instead of sad for what I don’t. Of course I still struggle with this at times. My most recent lesson this past year was to understand patience. I finally understood after reading a book one day about God’s will. He DOES listen to all of our prayers, and if we have not received what we have asked for, it is because He knows we do not need what we have asked for. We might WANT it, but at this time, for some reason or another, we do not need it. When I absorbed that information,I thought of the few things I have been praying for and have been waiting so patiently for. It is true. I can survive without them. I know God knows best and maybe he is waiting to give them to me at the perfect time in my life.

I have many dreams and goals for this new year. I feel lucky to have acquired everything I have and to be starting this year with a happier heart. My husband and I are able to spend more time together. We are working towards our future but I am able to see the good in today.

I am excited to see what life and God has in store for me this year.